THADDEUS PAUL FORMAL
April 24, 1992 – October 7, 2019 (Age:27)

“I was raped and mutilated as a baby. Taken away to a dark corner of
a hospital strapped down while knives and clamps were put to my most
precious sacred body part. A good lesson taught to us at birth with
sugar stuffed into our mouths [common infant pain relief] as we suffer
the worst pain of our whole lives. With no coping mechanisms and no
support from family or society we are left to stoop ourselves into drugs
and alcohol with no understanding or escape from a sense of violation
in the deepest parts of our psyche.

I love you brother. Until we meet again ….
~Thaddeus recounting his feelings in a final message to a close friend.

Thad was only five months away from finishing his second degree. The pressures of life, the growing awareness of his sexual problems and circumcision were growing too much for him too bear. He harbored a deep depression for years with no relief, only getting worse, and he couldn’t cope with it any longer.On October 7th 2019, Thad decided to take his own life.